I rebel, therefore, we exist.

"I rebel, therefore we exist." Albert Camus has to be one of my favourite authors of all time. Rebellion has been picked over and fucked and strangled and obsessed over for so long, that no matter what I said, it would sound like an echo of something that Camus said or that blah blah said, or that who ever the fuck said. Teen rebellion, women, Jews, blacks, dykes, fags. I identify with all of them and none of them at the same time. Does this mean that their existance creates my rebellion? They fought for something that existed before, but was not recognized by people outside, but the strife that unites the victim is the same strife that unites the victim with the executioner, but the tends to not know it. The pain of the Jews in Dachau was the same that the confused forced 17 year old S.S. boys felt, just with different vocabulary words. Does that open up issues to civil conversations? Does that erase the idea of born bias and prejudice? Can the NAACP see that the backwood motherfuckers who hang nooses in trees with strange fruit dangling from them hurt as bad as they do? There are always higher powers of oppression. Unfair tax systems that keep the white trash (cannon fodder - Irish descendants) in a position to hate each other because they are fighting for the same shitty jobs in poverty. Lack of education = lack of oppurtunity = lack of constructive out put for negative feelings = racism and hatred.

Now, how do people rebel metaphysically? How to rebel against something that is intangible to some people - God, Creator, Alternate Universes, our fate/place in life are rather large abstract concepts. If rebellion is just the affirmation of ideas, rights, values that are part of everyman, how can you do the same with something like God, with say, an atheist? A polytheist? How can metaphysical rebellion reach everyone and be a part of everyone? The only crime is excess, everything else is just mistakes. No crime, no sin. "A rebel is not an atheist, he is a blasphemer." Blaming God as the creator of death, and that life is incomplete because of death and wasteful because of our world filled with evil, and God is the vengeful force behind all of it. How do you rebel against an incomplete and wasteful life? To think that you can rid the entire world of evil is silly and naive. Isolation is not suggested, although a respite of 5 years to hide in the woods and do nothing but read sounds fantastic. This, still doesn't rid the world of evil. Is that even a valid stance for people, rebel boys and girls, to grapple with? Does the actual tangible rebellion hold more weight, should we address those first? Or can we not address one without the other?


I'm just a girl waitressing at an African resturant and dealing art on the weekend. What the fuck do I know. I'm just waiting for Warhola to get home so I can drink alot of bourbon straight and forget that I wrote this entire thing on a half empty check pad at work today.